Much Needed Update

I am behind with blogging but this Mom of two thing isn't coming with ease like I thought. I am trying not to have too high of expectations, but when I see the laundry baskets overflowing and the dishes rotting in my sink, I have myself a little anxiety fit and become a crazy woman. I am thankful to have two boys that keep me busy all day long, because I know just a few months ago I spent way too much time on the internet, so this little break has been much needed.

Where to start. Well, I am trying to be the best Mom I can be, but boy am I lacking. Poor Judd sure gets the short end of the stick with me lately. I have lost all patience with him (because sleep isn't happening really) and every night I say tomorrow I am going to be better. However, things tend to go South early the next morning and I feel like I am yipping away. He has such a strong little personality (and so do I) and sometimes I just don't give him the attention he needs. Sometimes I go to bed with lots of regret in my heart, and hope that he knows that I love the snot right out him-even if he is a little you know what. Jon has been his saving grace and mine too. I tend to tease about Jon's imperfections way too much, but I can honestly say that he has been my lifesaver. Judd adores him. I get jealous that Jon knows how to put the unimportant things aside to get down on the floor and play with Judd. I have a lot to learn from him.

Judd is such a good brother. He loves Remi so much and wants to continually hold him and help put his bink in the mouth. I feel like he has transitioned pretty well; although, he has become a little crazy about sharing his toys. Hopefully that will subside. Judd is finally getting the hang of potty training but we had to bring out the big guns and buy a DS. All his cousins have one and at Sunday dinners he has total melt downs because he wants one to play with too. So, Jon told him if he started going on the big boy chair he would buy him one. In my mind I thought yay right, but to my surprise he has been pretty successful. I am very proud of him and hope he can keep it up. Judd is a Sunbeam now at church and he loves it. My neighbor told me that he sat pretty well during Primary and even shushed (?spelling) her for trying to talk to him. Boy do I love the kid!

Remi has become my little butterball. He is growing too fast and I am sad that I already put his newborn clothes away. Remi has such a sweet disposition and I can tell that he loves listening to his crazy brother. For the most part he is pretty mellow but if I eat beans he lets me know how he feels. He isn't shy at all about expressing how ticked off he is about it. I am truly enjoying the newborn stage and I am so thankful to know what to expect. With Judd it was a lot harder because I didn't know what the sam hill I was doing. I always said I wanted two kids but Remi is making it a lot easier to say that one more would be nice :).

Motherhood is definitely a whirlwind and I am taking a day at a time. With love comes worry because all you want is to keep them safe and protected. I was explaining this to my sister-in-law (who is single with no children) and her response was that she wished she had that worry. She is so right...I am so thankful to be a mother.

I have attached some pics of my little family...enjoy!

No one ever warned me how hard potty training would be.

Taking pics of his brother with his new DS.

Jon took Judd to the Monster Truck show. Jon took me there on our first date.

Sweet Remi

Butterball!